Dead

i officially declaring dis blog dead...

dead as if it's inside me ya...

juz dun feel like anything d...

juz lost all the confidence i held in the previous 10 years...

not even a single one left... mood = figure it our urself

dis blog will b permanently dead...

i juz hate dis world...

i hate everything...

i hate everyone for each of deir own reasons... except u ba...

i even hate myself... irony ah??

haiz...

let's see how can i fare wif my spm... n the rest of my life...

ytd... already 6 hrs...

4 hrs of it... 2 hrs of it b4 falling exhaustingly to bed...

lost everything ya...

now look at it... death isn't a bad thing... life's a hell right now....

i lost the self i m the past 6 months.... the happier times...

u will nt see the happy me anytime soon... i really lost it now...

eyes blink also pain... jaws also wan move pain... nose reder than tt day...

aikz... how's it is? idk...

one piece?? two?? three?? a dozens?? hundreds?? millions?? dun know

juz dun feel right... alone... cold... piss... angry... sad...

watever it is.. dun dun dun n DUN i stress... dun disturb me...

i only wanna see one person.. only wanna talk to one person...

u all know who the person is... if it's not u... i will ignore...

thank you for all ur attention...

n good bye....

~nick~

Random... (by sylvia n debbie)

001. Real Name : Nicholas Goh Hui Ming
002. Nickname(s) : nick, nicholas, fai ming
003. Age : 17 years n counting
004. Horoscope : aries
005. Gender : XY (male)
006. Elementary : 1st one i 4got, 2nd is tadika mestika
007. Primary School : SK (L) La Salle
008. Secondary School : SMK (L) Bukit Bintang (juz gradutate)
009. College : dun know yet
010. Hair Colour : black
011. Hair Length : not too short but still short... i hate dis hair
012. Loud Or Quiet : semi?
013. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
014. Phone or Camera : Phone
015. Health Freak : not really about myself.. others may b....
16. Drink or Smoke : neither tried drinking or smoking... drinking might try, smoking is a nono
017. Do you have a crush on someone : it turned to love?? =.=
018. Eat or Drink : eat wat?? drink wat?? b more specific zzzzz
019. Piercings : no
020. Tattoos : no
021. Social or Anti-Social : half half?
022. Righty or lefty : righty
023. First Piercing : no
024. First Relationship : Form5
025. First Best Friend : Jonathan
026. First Award : Top ten in std 1
027. First Kiss : for me to know, for u to find out
028. First Pet : no pets
029. First Big Vacation : Pulau Tioman
030. First love at first sight : once?
031. First Big Birthday : all family de
032. First Surgery : for me to know, for u TO NOT find out =.=
033. First sport you joined : football?
034. Orange or Apple juice : lemon
035. Rock or Rap : rock
036. Country or Screamo : Country
037. N-SYNC or Backstreet Boys : Backstreet Boys
038. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera : britney spears
039. Night or Day : nights
040. Sun or Moon : moon
041. TV or Internet : Internet
042. PlayStation or Xbox : none
043. Kiss or Hug : both
044. Iguana or Turtle : iguana will b cool
045. Spider or Bee : i hate insects
46. Fall or Spring : ahh???
047. Limewire or iTunes : iTunes
048. Soccer or Baseball : soccer
049. Eating : no appetite
050. Drinking : plain water
051. Excitement level : rock bttm
052. I'm about to : err... wat i did ytd..? tt's it
053. Listening to: sound of fan working
054. Plans for today: idle n at i did ytd...
055. Waiting for : for things to get bttr
056. Energy level : dun know
057. Thinking about someone : yupz.. hadn't i always?? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
058. Want kids : if she wants it
059. Want to get married : most prob
060. When : depends
061. How many kids do you want : if want, max 2
062. Any name in mind : no planning
063. is missing (???) : u
092. Heaven : i dun mind is hell anyway... life now's a hell
093. When do you want to die : idc??
094. Tooth Fairy : no... fairy tales.. pui
095. Kiss on a first date : dunknow
096. Angels : angels of wat?? emo-ness??
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now : darn yes
098. Are you seriously happy with your life rite now : about one thing yes... rest i hate my life
099. Do you believe in God : not really
100. Will you post this as 100 truths and tag 10 people : idc, i juz do

-chongsaikhong-
-allan-
-matthew chin-
-kailin-
-wayne-
-munwai-
-maddie-
-philip-
-jiaen-
-n anyone who wans to do.. idc-